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Betsy
Jul. 21st, 2005
08:36 pm
Wow...it has been a really really long time since I have undated. Lets see...what have I been up to?? I have made some really cool friends here in ohio. These days I would rather stay in ohio than go to Michigan. Thats really weird considering my attitude on that subject 2 years ago.
I have become a youth leader at my church. I love all the kids and i love hanging out at the church and having fun with those kids.
We found out 2 months ago that my aunt (moms sister) has a rare form of cancer. They cant do surgery yet and it doesnt look like there is much more hope. It has been really hard on my whole family especially my mom.
I am also transferring yet again in the fall. This time to Liberty University in Lynchburg, Virginia. I think this is the right decision for me. Lauren will also be there in the fall with me. It will be really cool. I am living in an apartment and my roommate seems really cool which I need after my situation with Ann. There better be no carebears...thats all i have to say!
Anways thats all for now...more later...comment if you want!
tiredJan. 11th, 2005
09:44 pm
Its been months since I have updated...for all of you who still read this here is what is going on in my eventful life.
I am attending Youngstown State University and just finished my first semester...I did pretty well but anything is better than last year.
I have been gone for an entire month in Virgina visiting my grandma, Michigan visiting family and friends and Florida helping my grandparents drive down there. It was all fun except Virgina. My grandma has alzheimers on top of Parkinson's Disease. It was really rough seeing her like that and I hope that I dont have to anymore. I know that seems harsh but it was sooo difficult seeing her where she didnt know what day it was or forgot who people were. It doesnt help that she was a nurse and knows everything so she stops taking medicine and then starts again so it never has the chance to help her.
The day I got home from florida Jeannine, Chris, Mary and Kim came down to visit me. It was fun but i have a feeling that they were bored too. All we did was watch movies and such but I had been gone for so long and was so tired.
I am a youth leader at my church now which is fun but weird because my brother is in the youth group...i just dont really talk to him and give him his space though.
sleepyJul. 21st, 2004
10:25 pm
wow...it has been a very eventful week! one of the kids that i babysit smacked me in the face because she was jealous that another kid was sitting on my lap! i was pissed especially when her mom seemed to not care! whatever...
I also changed my major...most of you know that it has been a very rough year for me. when i moved to Ohio...i promised myself that i was going to change completely. I did too for the most part. For my entire life i have wanted to be a teacher...i love kids but it is time for a change. I dont think that i want to spend the rest of my life teaching kids. I spent a long time last night talking to my dad. I looked thru alot of his old college text books. I love getting an equation and figuring pieces out and then figuring out the final answer! i love putting things together and making things work. I love math and science. My new major is Mechanical Engineering! I am sooo excited about this. This is what my dad does too...i told him what i wanted and he laughed. i know i can do this! my dad has told me that this is one of the hardest undergrads to complete. I have to take calc 1 and 2, chem 1 and physics 1 next year along with like 3 engineering classes. It is going to be tough but i can do it.
I did have to promise my dad one thing...that i will not work at GM. That is where he works and he said that no matter how good i am i will always hear "your dad got you here". he is not going to help me at all. He will not get me internships, nothing. I would rather have it that way though because then i will feel like i did this completely by myself!
I need a change. i want to start my life over from scratch and i am working on it. i am much more motivated and i hope that people take me seriously and i hope that everyone doesnt think that this is going to be another fuck up by betsy! ITS NOT!!!
ok thats all for now...more lata!
excitedJun. 30th, 2004
11:12 am
I have done alot of thinking these past couple of days. This past weekend was full of fun. I had absolutely no stress in my life and I was truely happy. That has not happened in a long time!
I regret everything that happened this past year. I really honestly, if you think about it had no reason to complain. My dad has given me everything I could ever ask for and more. That does not mean im spoiled or anything...how to I react though...I was a complete bitch all year long. I alienated myself from everyone. I hated my parents and friends but most of all I hated myself.
People ask "If there was one thing you could change about your life...what would it be?" Mine would definitly have to be my freshmen year of college.
I fucked myself over this past year. I could not even stay in school. I blew 15,000 dollars and why...because I was feeling sorry for myself. Yes, we moved but it should not have affected my that way.
I am very sorry to anyone that I was a bitch to this past year. I love you all very much and thank you for standing by my side. I know that I hurt many people this past year, especially my family.
I am so scared right now, Im scared of liking Ohio, Im scared of starting a new school and most of all I am scared of being a failure again. I wish i was sure of my future and that I know that I can succeed at YSU!
ok well I guess that is all for now...more lata
scaredJun. 28th, 2004
10:40 pm
I went home for the weekend to michigan. It was awesome.
I was really busy all weekend and saw lots of people. But, i miss all of my friends sooo much. I wish i was in Michigan for the summer, i know that its better if im not but it also reminds me how lonely i am. I really do need a life...I dont know anyone down here still. Tomorrow i am going on all day and looking for a night job so that im not hanging out with little kids anymore.
Our pool just opened and it is sooo nice. Except i need to learn to wear sunscreen cuz now im peeling from my very burnt body. I live at the pool these days cuz my kids love to swim. It works perfectly.
My mom is in Atlanta this week and since im off i get to cart my little brother around and get to hear him complain about how he doesnt have a lisence...ooo wait...maybe he should get better grades and maybe he would be allowed to get one. O well...i have no life so i guess it does not matter!
I am out of work until thurs cuz the family is on vacation...
Well thats all for now...more lata
lonelyJun. 13th, 2004
10:20 am
Friday i was home for a total of 1 hour all day...I had to babysit for Zach and Ellie from 830-3 and then i went to home depot for a second. Driving down 224 (the only main road we have cuz we are out in the middle of nowhere) was a nightmare. Then i had to babysit again at 5 for slate, i didnt get home till 1am from that.
Yesturday i got my hair all chopped off. It is soooo short now. I got 6 inches cut off.
I went rollerblading yesturday too. I did learn something though. i cant stop. I havent rollerbladed in years. I ended up blading down the first hill and i thought that if i went into the grass i could stop well it didnt exactly work, i fell face first into the mud. I was covered from head to toe in mud. We ended up going 2 miles before we we stopped. The first thing i did when i got home was take a long shower and demud myself.
Ok thats all for now...more lata
boredJun. 9th, 2004
10:47 pm
This morning Chrissy called me and told me that i didnt need to work because she was working at Zachs school and Ellie was going with her...it was a nice and peaceful day without that brat Ellie...she has the worst attitude ever...
I got sooo much done today...my parents are coming home tomorrow and i have to have my moms house looking very clean or she will kill me. I spent all day moving stuff from my old room into my new room.
Today was bad...i dont know y...i missed my friends more than ever today...
Ok thats all for now...more lata
blahJun. 7th, 2004
10:32 pm
so yeah today was fun! I babysat all day for Ellie...Zach is still in school and i will get him on thurs! Ellie wanted to go across the street and play so i went with her and they had a babysitter too which was cool cuz she is my age and wants to help me get to know people from YSU!
My parents are out of town this week which is great...i dont have to deal with my mom anymore except she called like 4 times already and they left this morning! whatever...i just stopped answering it!
I have had a GREAT couple of weeks and im not letting anything getting down...im actually starting to like it here, but shhhh...dont tell my dad...he doesnt need to know at least yet anyway...
well thats all for now...more lata
energeticJun. 6th, 2004
10:28 pm
well...im back! I had a really bad couple of weeks...i screwed up big time but thats ok...i learned from my mistakes!
I spent all day yesturday painting my new room or the old guest room...I switched rooms! I moved into the guest room, the guest room moved to the basement and the study moved up into my room cuz my mom hates working in the basement. It was alot of moving furniture up and down the stairs and all i have to say is OWWW...my knee is in sooo much pain now! but thats ok cuz i am in a GREAT mood today..i dont even remember the last time that happened.
My nose is still major hurting but ice is doing it good...in case you didnt know i fractured it while i was babysitting cuz the kid threw his head back really hard into my face...the bruises are finally gone which is good.
Lets see...i have been babysitting full time and yeah the little girl is 4 and has a major attitude but i am learning how to deal with her. We joined the YMCA as a family and i LOVE it...the kids are members too so i keep them amused there. They are also members of the Tippy Country Club and so i get to go without joining and its really cool there to and expensive.
My parents are gone this week...well they leave tomorrow morning and come back on thurs. I have sooo much to do before they come back...i have to completely move into my new room and finish unpacking boxes from the move a year ago...i thought i was done but more boxes seem to continue surfacing.
Ok thats all for now...more lata yo...
happyMay. 21st, 2004
08:11 pm
i had a really rough day...ive been here 3 weeks and i hate it more and more every day!!
Everyone that truely knew me and that understood and listened to what i wanted and cared about me are now out of my life!! i still know no one here and i have tried to meet people! i dont talk to anyone back home anymore...i went home last weekend but everyone has their own lives...im not in it anymore. I think today i just did too much thinking!! im sooo lonely and im sick of hanging out with my family...they get to be too much sometimes!
whatever....i guess i need to get over it. i wish more than anything for this to be last summer...last summer was awesome. i had friends, a job and a life. I miss that more than anyone knows.
I dont want people feeling sorry or thinking that im some spoiled brat, i know that i need to get over it but its sooo hard sometimes.
It was just a rough day today!! ok well thats all for now...more lata...
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